Archive | August 2014

I Thought I Never Knew Winter by Karla Marie M. Roldan


It’s dark.
It’s cold
It embraces me and
I felt different.

It’s different.
It’s new.
It is beautiful and
I am entranced.

I am hypnotized.
I am paralyzed.
It’s freezing and
I am slowly losing.

I am losing it.
I am getting out
But I can’t move and
I am helpless.

I am in dark.
I am in cold.
Winter embraces me and
I am different.

I am different.
I am new.
Winter is beautiful and
I am barely breathing.

I never move, never helpless.
I am dark. I am cold.
Cold is I and so as dark.
I embraced winter and in me – she dwells.

A Dead Star by Karla Marie M. Roldan


It is gone.
Those intimate eyes
that stares like

It is gone.
That bright smile
that transcends
like a laserbeam

It is gone.
That careful hands
that holds me
like a thief.

It is gone.
That sweet voice
that brought me
to peace.

It is gone.
the eyes, the smile
the hands, the voice
They are all gone.

It is gone.
It is not the same
And I think it will never be.
It is beautiful but it is gone.

It is gone –
A dead star I always look up to.
A dead star that left my heart
holding on to what is lost.

People Really Don’t Like Love


“People don’t like love. They like that flittery flirty feeling. They don’t love love. Love is sacrificial. Love is ferocious. It’s not emotive. Our culture doesn’t love love. It loves the idea of love. It wants the emotion without paying anything for it. It is ridiculous.” – Matt Chandler

I am thinking of how love is really is and then I have come across this quote. Love, whatever form it is, is always sacrificial. You may not sacrifice the material things but you are putting yourself to the most vulnerable state. In love, there is always hope. There is always expecttaions and often, if not most of the times, ones heart will be broken by these hopes and expectations. Sure, one may say that, ” You should not expect at all.” That is the one of the biggest lie that the human beings say all the time because when you love, hope is always present even if it is just a size of a grain of rice. One will always have it no matter how much you deny it and that is one of the sacrifice of love – having your hope crushed once in a while. It makes us scared but that’s what love is all about – that is real love all about.
I guess that is the reason why many people have failed in love. They forgot the fact that love is not emotive and is always sacrificial. We are slaves to our emotions but emotions change randomly. What you feel now will probably vanish or change into something else the next day or the day after that. It changes and that is the reality. Our emotions doesn’t live happily ever after. It changes. It vanishes. That is why love is not emotive. It does not settle for the emotions but with the commitment and sacrifice one is willing to do for the ones they love. It is not about how one makes you happy but how they failed to do so but still you chose to stay. As mere human beings, we are born to create disappointments and break promises, intentionally or not intentionally and the main reason is, we are not God. We cannot control things and no matter how hard you try to keep your promises and to make someone happy, you will still manage to fail. We all do that is why love does not count the times a person made you happy. It is not about staying with the person that makes you happy but staying even if there is no reason to stay at all. It is selfless. People have failed to recognize this but that is what real love all about. Sure, the feeling of your heart thumping whenever you see someone is good – real good but that is not what love is all about. Love is sacrificial and love is ferocious.