In a year of three, I tried to find myself
As I live in mess, as live in fear
I tried to get up. I tried to stand still.
I faced the past. I faced the dark.
I left them all. I stayed alone
For I must do this on my own
Through all this I know she’s there.
Shining though the dark is suffocating
And brightening my dark days
She smiles though there’s tears in her eyes.
I can feel her pain but I am too weak.
I am not strong and so I let it be.
I want to wipe the tears but I couldn’t.
I want to catch her but I am scared.
I want to stay but I am unsteady.
I take my time finding myself
And let her go a thousand times
As I wait for the perfect time.
And now I come, forever to stay
I’ve found myself, I am brave
But now she’s lost, forever gone.
Her light died and I never knew.
I’ve found myself as she lose hers.
I came too late, I came too slow
Courage I gained but no one to show
For yesterday’s all I have but I let it roll.